“Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father. There is no shadow of turning with Thee; Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not. As Thou hast been Thou forever wilt be.”
That is the old song that came to mind this morning as I sat and tried to pray away my anxious thoughts. Lord, you are faithful even in the midst of anxiety’s attacks. YOU are faithful.
Something that I want to leave behind in 2015 is A N X I E T Y. But, let’s call it what it is…F E A R.
It is an ugly monster at times. Something that comes unannounced and unexpected and then leaves just as quickly. However, I have discovered that my fear is a sure fire way that I will turn to Jesus in prayer, immediately. I know where my true peace comes from. Sometimes, fear is a way to pull me back into fellowship. I am probably to hard headed for a more subtle approach. So, I think this is the way that my spirit is redirected to the cross when I am trying to handle too much on my own.
For people that have never struggled with this anxiety (fear), it seems “made up.” Some people can never understand how you can overthink your way into a panic attack. Some do not understand that feeling of not being able to swallow, heart palpitations, shaking hands, hot flashes, and just feeling out of control.
I do though. So, for those of you who struggle with it, I totally understand. Through this post I hope that I can help bring you some comfort and reassurance, you are not alone in your feelings. Anxiety is real. FEAR is a thing. You are not making it up. There is help for you out there. That help is found in Jesus Christ. There is no prescription that can bring about the peace that is found in Him.
I want to leave behind the feelings of nervousness, the constant worry, fear, the feeling of trying to stay prepared for the worst to happen. For goodness sake, I am not even a mom yet. I worry about other people as if they are my children, as if I am supposed to protect them at all times. I do not even have to be particularly close to the person. I just do not like to know that people are hurting, sad, angry, unsettled – it literally troubles my spirit. It scares me. The results of hurt, sadness, anger is what scares me. I just want everyone to be okay, so that all can be great in the world. But, that is not reality. I have to stop and think…Is God not enough? What more do I think that I can do that He is not capable of? Why do I feel like I am being called to FIX it? Did He not prepare us for this?
I worry about myself too. Will something happen to me? If something happens to me, will my family be okay? I have a headache…is it a tumor? Oh my goodness! Look at this, a mole! Do I have skin cancer? – GET A GRIP WOMAN! Sometimes I have to laugh at myself. Of course, some of this is exaggerated…but you might be surprised at how fear can turn something small into something HUGE.
What about you? Do you worry too much? Do you constantly fear things that have not even presented themselves to you?
Do we rob ourselves of PEACE?
I think that the answer is, “yes.” Sometimes my anxiety is a result of my own lack of faith. Every time that I am worried about something that is completely out of my control, I am saying, “God I do not trust you.” Of course, that may not be what I think I mean, but that is what my actions are saying. That is what my lack of faith is saying. Is God not able? Of course He is! I just have to remember it. Remember it, every.single.day. Of course things happen in our lives that can cause us to fear, but God still says…TRUST ME, I GOT YOU. This is all apart of His plan.
So, how? How do I plan to leave my FEAR in 2015?
Of course, there is no magical remedy. Ridding myself of fear is something that I have to do ON PURPOSE. I have to do it daily. I can not just PRAY IT GONE and just hope that I am not rudely interrupted by anxiety attacks, without a conscious effort on my part. I have to live it every single moment. I have to constantly tell God, “I trust You,” and live like I do.That is the cure. I have to change my way of thinking and redirect it every single day. I have to choose to not be afraid. I have to choose to take back my peace.
I have to THINK like I trust Jesus Christ with my life – that means, speak against worry as soon as it enters my spirit. I have to THINK like I trust Him with the lives of my loved ones – pray as soon as I have a nervous thought. I have to BELIEVE Isaiah 54:17 – No weapons formed against me shall prosper. That is a promise that I have to BELIEVE.
I encourage you to do the same. Take control of your thoughts, take them captive and lay them at the throne. Leave them there.
Tell God, “Lord, I do not know what to do with my own thoughts, please reshape them for me. Help me to think on things that are empowering and not discouraging.”
I know that this world is a messed up place and it is hard not to get sucked into a hole of depression, worry, anger, fear, resentment, and just plain old confusion.
There is a power greater than all of the bad in the world, and there is a promise of the coming of a King.
I strongly pray that if you do not have a relationship with God for yourself that you will get out of your own way and open up your heart to Jesus. Do not be confused by this world that says, “God is not real.” – I can tell you that He is. He is the answer. He is the remedy. All you have to do is BELIEVE. We do not have to be slaves to fear. We do not have to continue battling anxiety attacks. We do not have to feel hopeless. There is power in the name of Jesus to break every chain.
So, if you too are tired of fear sneaking up on you, here are some inspirations to think on that can help break those chains. God knew we wold struggle with anxiety, fear, hopelessness. We are equipped wit the tools to combat those feelings. Choose what you think. Choose what you will believe.
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope.
2 Timothy 1:7 – For God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of POWER, LOVE, and SOUND MIND.
Proverbs 3: 5-6 – Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight.
And lastly, I leave you with this…
Philippians 4:6-7 – Be anxious about NOTHING, but in EVERYTHING by prayer and humbly asking with thankfulness, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through CHRIST JESUS.
Have a Happy New Year and lets leave fear behind us where it belongs.