I’m a dreamer. I’m always thinking of the next thing.
Always been that way.
There have been so many times in my life when I thought I knew exactly what I wanted and when I wanted it. I thought I knew what was best for me, so I prayed and asked God to grant me those things.
So many times the answer to my prayers was, “no.” Or, “not right now.”
One of the most disheartening things ever is when you think you know what’s best for you and want instant gratification, but the answer is simply, “no.”
I’ve just been looking back over my life up to the point I am now. I received many “NO” answers. But, as I look around I see that if those answers were, “YES,” when I wanted them to be, then my life wouldn’t be what it has become today.
When I was 18 I wanted to go directly to a 4 year university. The answer was, “no.” It was simply not an affordable option. I had to pay for most of college out of pocket, but because of it, I was able to graduate college with out having to take a SINGLE student loan. He knew better than me. And Sallie Mae doesn’t even know my name! THANK YA LORD! *insert praise hand emojis*
At the time, I felt like it was unfair that I couldn’t do what I wanted. But, now, I’m more than thankful.
Another example is when I was 22, I thought I was ready to get married and make it work even though I lived at home, I was a broke college student, and so was my boyfriend. But, it’s still what I thought I wanted. Even though deep down I knew I was rushing it. I just wanted what I wanted, I didn’t really care if it meant I was going to set myself up to struggle more than necessary.
The answer was, “no,” and because of it, I got to finish school and live on my own independently. I signed my first lease somewhere that I did not even meet the requirements. I was not making double the rent, I had absolutely NO credit, I had no renters history, and I still did not need a co-signer. Even the leasing agent was amazed that I got approved.
(crying on the phone when I called to tell my Mom I was approved.)
But, God knew what He had planned. My approval was granted. I had so much He wanted me to do on my own first. Again, He knew better than me. Some of those skills I gained on my own have been very useful now that I’m married.
I could go on and on with many examples. But, the point is, I’m so grateful that He knows the plans for my life.
That gives me so much assurance as I look forward.
Being 26, newlywed, and facing so many new things in my life, it can be nerve wrecking. I find myself making my next plan quite often. I just want to be successful, happy, and living the life God intends for me.
If you’re in a season of, “No,” right now, it’s going to be okay. God loves you and His plans are for your good and not disaster. Look forward to your future and HOPE.
Jeremiah 29:11 ❤️