I haven’t written about myself in a while.
This morning I felt pulled out of bed to do so.
A few months ago, I found myself in a doctor’s office. I was having these symptoms that were freaking me out. My heart felt funny. I could feel my heart beat. I could feel these flutters in my chest…no pain.
Just, f l u t t e r s.
They scared me. They would not come very often, but mainly they would come when I was THINKING about them.
“Have I felt heart flutters today?” – Oh! There they are.
Were they real? Or were they my thoughts in action? I could not tell.
The truth is, my mind and my spirit were under so much stress, and my thoughts were a reflection of that. Fear, worry, doubt.
What I was thinking…I was becoming. Afraid. Worrisome. Doubtful.
I was thinking something was wrong with me, so I was feeling like something was wrong with me. There is a huge difference between a true problem, and one that you have manifested for yourself.
“Whatever a man thinks in his heart, so he shall be.” Proverbs 23:7
Long story short, there is nothing physically wrong with my heart. Test and blood work, all normal. To be honest, I am quite healthy. I am fine.
What I was feeling were symptoms of my anxiety.
I have had massages, seen a chiropractor, gotten pedicures – things that help me to relax.
But, I realized that I needed to reroute my thoughts, my SPIRIT needed and alignment.
“Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things.”
So, I began the process of elevating how I thought about myself and my circumstances.
I needed to think about what was TRUE.
I needed to realign my spirit.
There has been a lot going on around me in my personal life, but I have had to make the difficult decision of not giving too much of my energy into things that are outside of my control. Here are 5 ways that I was able to do that.
1. Create boundaries around my heart.
If you are like me, you tend to absorb things around you and are really sensitive. Because of this, we have to create boundaries and sometimes that may mean physical distance from something or someone that brings us down.
2. Listen to things that I want to replay over and over.
We usually think about the things that we listen to. Take MUSIC for example, songs get ‘stuck in my head’ all of the time. The repetition sticks with us and we find ourselves singing songs that we may have not even HEARD recently. Sometimes, it may be a song I do not even like that much. So, I have been listening to music that uplifts me lately. Shoutout to Apple Music playlists. I listen to songs that make me feel good when I repeat the lyrics.
3. Meditate on things that will help me grow.
PODCASTS have been my go-to lately. I LOVE listening to podcasts. Podcasts are digital audio files that are usually presented in a series of new installments. It’s like talk radio, kind of. I listen to podcasts that are focused on self-help, motivation, things that focus on women of color, and some entertainment ones. As a person that enjoys story telling and interviewing, it is enjoyable for me to listen to things like this. It fuels my personal creativity and it is just so calming for me. I usually take away something that is extremely helpful and relevant.
4. Talk to God on a regular basis.
I talk to God all day long. Prayer for me does not happen on my knees. To be honest, I can not remember the last time that I got on my knees to pray. I pray everywhere and all the time. Even when I am doing the things listed above, I pray. I ask God to guide me. I thank God for the provisions in my life. I thank God for protecting my family, and ask for continued guidance and protection. Prayer is talking to God and it does not have to be complicated or done in a certain way. I even pray when I am angry. It is how I maintain an open relationship with God.
If you do not know how to pray, you can even start here.
Say: God, I want to learn to pray. Please, guide me.
From there, just talk…God hears you. He hears your HEART. So, even when you do not have the exact words. That is okay, too.
5. Get out there more.
I have challenged myself to get out and network more. I am really interested in fostering new and healthy relationships and potential friendships with like minded people. I can not do that from my home. I have to get out there more. So, when I see an event that I am interested in attending, I try to make it a point to go. Each time that I have done this, I really have enjoyed myself and met some really cool people. I am not afraid to go places by myself. It can be awkward at first, but it helps you to step out of that comfort zone. Do not wait to have someone to go with, just go.
My anxiety and heart flutters have subsided substantially, because I have been managing where and what I put my energy into. Sometimes we do not realize that even the most simple things like what we LISTEN to can be draining us.
I feel really good in this space. I feel like my spirit is aligned with my purpose, and I am hoping to just go a little bit higher every day. But, when I am challenged, I will revisit steps 1 – 5 and dial into the areas that need a little bit more attention.
I hope this was helpful to you! If you try any of these things, let me know! Leave a comment, or connect with me on social media @FROREALDOE.